Designer’s Dilemma

This is one damn old-school song that keeps on popping out of my head every single time I can’t sleep. I swear, ever since I first heard the song, up until now, I can’t help but be singing this tune in my head. Hmmm… that would be about five years now… probably even more….. can’t keep track of time though; either I’m really, really forgetful, or am still denying the fact that I am pretty much adding up on the age department. Time sure does fly, but that’s getting out of topic, anyway, I love matchbox20, their songs kind of like sticks it up to you, a little bit in your face type, kick you when you’re down, but later on picks you up kind of thing ** that sounded stupid… **

Never really understood why I like their songs but I guess I just do, so what the heck… I have a couple of theories though, pointing out to my ever-so-engaging personality disorder. Guess I’d have to start with me being too realistic, to the point of becoming an A-hole, and mind you, it’s a BIG Capital ‘A’. The other one I guess is just being able to relate to the songs, well that’s pretty normal - I guess; maybe I do still have a shot at being ‘Normal’..

Explanation: why an A-hole, well here’s another theory; Life’s Never Fair - or is that a fact?? People who’ve seen enough of how the world works slowly but surely becomes this, why? Because by we’re simply too greedy, by nature we just are; some say it’s in our genes, some say it’s because of how we were raised, and some would even go as far as it is a simple act of self-preservation; well whatever the reason is, we’re just bottom-line greedy. Hmm… I’m noticing now that I’m not even giving closure to what I’m supposed to be explaining in the first place.. complicated

What has greed got to do with us becoming major A-holes? A lot. Greed is everything that you’d want out of your system, as it consumes you. Greed would make you do anything at any cost to get what it wants, make you step on other people, stab people in the back -you get the flow, right? So where am I going with this?? Heck I don’t know, to bed I guess - the only reason why I’m writing this now is that I can’t sleep coz yesterday I was up until 3am doing some work - on a Sunday!!! Who the heck works Sundays?!? And now I just can’t sleep because my eyes simply won’t close, thus me remembering Matchbox20’s 3am…

It’s 3am, I must be lonely? LOL Love that line. Makes me kind of remember the good old days where everything in life seems to revolve around the romantic aspect of life, WOW… that’s pretty scientifically coined - this is me when lacking sleep (talking to myself in public - yet another matchbox20 lyric), guess the older you get the closer you are to becoming a full-blown A-hole.

Filed under: Songs on February 26th, 2008